My Poetry.

STUCK

I Just Wanna C R Y, It Feels Like I've Swallowwed Ah Rock. Can't Hold It In or Go On As Time Runs Out on Thee Clock. but They Say Time Heals All Wounds So I Just Coun Every Tick & Tock Waitinq For Ah Briqhter Day That's Will Hopefully Be The Next. So How Can You Expect Me To Have Hope For Tomorrow When I've Lost Myself & Have Ah Heart Filled With Sorrow. See The Pain In My Eyes & Nothinq Can Stop Me From Feelinq Down. Pleedinq For What I Once Had 'cause All That I Had Is GONE. Don't Have Anywhere To Go, So How Do I Move On? Stuck between Zoae Domonique & Domai Illeon. Don't Know Who I Wanna Be, Just Afraid I'm Goinq No Where. Need Ah Break, and Ah Simple Breath Of Fresh Air, So I Can Get Away From The Pressure. Tired Of Them Sayin' Who I Should Be, What I Should & Shouldn't Do. but Only If Some Just Knew, Understood, or Had Ah Clue. Can't Live My Life Throuqh Someone Else's Eyes, Gotta Keep My Dreams Throuqh All The Tears I Cry, Can't Find My Fate Through Anyone Else's Life. I Gotta Stick It Out 'cause Everythinq Will Fall Into Place [hopefully.] When The Time Is Riqht.

MY FIRST LOVE

Dear D_______, I Want To Talk To You but I Know You Won't Listen. & BEsides, I'm Afraid What You're Reaction Will Be, So I DON'T. but Inside of me there are words waitinq to come out & Tell You how i Feel, How I Miss You and that I Love You Despite Thee Fuckinq Situation, and how I need you in my life, then especially how much I want you. but Those Words May Stay For Ever In My Heart- Locked inside. Sometimes I Wonder If They're Words Locked inside You too, but I'll Never Know. This Will Be The Last Messaqe You Recieve From Me, and From Now On You'll Be Nothinq but Ah M E M O R Y , ah memory full of aqony. and Hopefully ah leason learned. & I Know I'll Dread To See You 'cause it will refresh the pain you caused me. So I decide to avoid myself from seeinq you. & There's Ah Moment in Life Where You can't Recover Anymore From Another Break'Up.

PROHIBITED LOVE

" Always Loved The Bad Boy Type, The Kind That Daddy Wouldn't Like. Prohibited Love, I'm Drawn To You Like Forbidden Fruit. Knowinq Your No Good For Me, But This Connection Won't Leave Me Be. Like Ah Druq I'm Addicted To You Like Meth, Fiendin' And Can't Wait 'Til My Next Fix. We're Aqainst All Odds Like Juliet & Romeo. Prepared To Confess The Truth, I Don't Believe The World's Ready For This. " 

UNEXPECTED

whoa. When I see you I qet the butterflies, the sound of your name takes my breath away, and your touch qives me the chills. I never expected this, this crush. me actually liking you. you likinq someone like meh. Like turned to love, and love turned into ah lie. & the truth always some how comes up missing. Tired of playing this game, 'cause in the end umma lose. So if your qonna break my heart. I have ah favor to ask. . If you do, can you make it quick? make it painless. . Just Wanna Get It Over With. . . . . . I've Been Corrupted, This Is Ah Conspiracy, So Let's Start Some Controversy.

MY NAME WILL REMAIN

They say I'm beyond different, like I've got my own genre. I sit back & watch life 'coz I have to deal w/ karma. & I can't explain myself, so I'll remain misunderstood. I try to make my parents happy, but I just can't be good. Even if I make things hard on myself, I'm gon make it to Hollywood. I mean that's what I want. w/ stilettos, cars & ah nigga to flaunt. I wanna make it big, Juggernaut. & if the sky's the limit, consider me an astronaut. Just wondering where do I really belong don't wanna be 30 wondering where did I go wrong no self pity though my life's an epic story like king kong Impatient, hope it don't take to long. 'coz when I make it, no one can take it records, umma break it. Talent, you can't fake it & I think I have some, but there's stil more to gain I think I could be possibly born to entertain. Gonna drive myself insane when I run for the fame, try to make myself ah name Just hope I don't get ah sprain, don't wanna make there in vain & bring my parents shame, b/c it's crazy in the game almost impossible to obtain. they say take ah shot at it, aim but there's too much on my brain & my mind needs another frame before I hope aboard this train, need to unleash the thoughts that are slain Refuse to continue life w/ my heart in chains So together w/ Mary Jane, we're gonna take away the pain and make it there, untamed. Zoae, she's ah wild thang. & for that reason her name will always remain

NEVER

They Always Say "Never Say Never" Eff That So Here It Goes. . . B/c I Have So Much Pain, Hate & Hurt From My Head To My Toes. A Personality So Bright, A Smile That Glows. No Tears, Just Laugh It Off So No Emotions Shows. but NEVER again will I trust. NEVER will I let someone screw me over. NEVER will I give up on life. NEVER will I not feel like crying through the day. Because Life's Been Ah Bitch Despite Tha Fact I'm Here To Stay I've Done What I THough I'd Never Do & Are Who I Thought I Wasn't, & Changed In So Many Ways. I'm So Far Gone I've Reached The Point Of No Return So NEVER Will I Be The Same...

TOO YOUNG

Dream as if You'll Live FOREVER. Live as if You'll Die TOMORROW. Cut Out playing Heart Broken; Cuz this Girl don't want any Sorrow. I won't be trying to find myself, cuz it's impossible to be found. I'll create myself and if it goes bad. . . hopefully HE'LL turn myLife Around; wanna get straight to the point. . [IS HE MEANT FOR ME?] but to young to be held up by that thing called Love cuz it CONFUSES the hell outta Me!

DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE

Can you meet me half way? Baby I'm scared, because this heart of mine, well it's soar from the last time it was broken So feel free to cross the line Feeling good, better than love drunk You've got me on cloud nine but When I fall will you catch me? You & Me, it ain't gon be easy 'cause I'm hurt and the solution is bigger than you and me but I need you, somebody so please don't leave you don't think true love exist but I need you to believe long relationships aren't what you condone but we've got potential of forever so PLEASE don't leave me alone.

HELD HOSTAGE

The Pain You Put Me Throuqh I Can Forqive But Never Forqet. I Told Myself We Were Done but It Wasn't Over Just Yet. To Sure I Moved On Until I Saw You That Day. The Feelinqs Came Rushinq Back So I Heard What You Had to Say. Here We Go With Your Sad Story. . . You Just Repeat How Much You "So-Called" Love Me. Say Sorry With Your Words & Not Your Actions buhh D A M N, Life Without You Doesn't Give Me Satisfaction. You Gave Me No Choice but to Fall In Love With You. Your Love Held Me Randsom but This Only Involves Us Two. You Keep Me Without Chains Put Up My Fiqht but I Can Not Win Beinq Held Hostaqe Is So Much Pain But I Refuse To Give In.